There are moments of complete clarity
Mixed with moments I am clearly not thinking straight.
Sometimes while sitting and thinking of nothing
My head begins to question everything.
Sometimes I wish I could just believe
Nearly blindly, but everything everything you say.
Sometimes I wish nothing had ever happened
But then we’d expect everything to go our way.
Life is so complicated
And experience comes with a price.
What within me I’ve revealed to you
Even this significant vice.
Over-thinking and too much worry
Put a strain on my mental state
Though trust me when I say to you
I’ve begun ‘us’ with a clean slate.
Sometimes I sit and close my eyes
Think of sitting with you having coffee
Neither of us thinking of anything in particular
Just enjoying the moment;
Trying to bring the pieces of me I lost
Back together to give them to you.
I want to show you every facet of me
Because this is all so new.
Shades of what I am come out
Some are just not very nice
I’ feel betrayed over nothing at all
And you, always pay the price.
Now as we forge forward today
I know you will take heed
When I lower the boom and hold my breath
Remember old wounds still bleed.
Sometimes it takes a gentle hand
To tame what seems so harsh.
It takes a love from a strong man
To heal the hurt