They would love to talk to you about all my failures
How I couldn’t keep a man around to save my life.
Tell you all about how I failed at college
Much like I failed as a wife.
On and on about what a terrible parent I am
How they have to buy so many things
The poor dear children are starving at night
Unless it is dinner they bring.
They won’t tell you that I’ve killed myself
To be the perfect child
Baptized in a church I didn’t belong in
Then the rumors about me were wild.
Not a word will be said about my writing
How I’ve woken sometimes to escape
Within a world I can understand
A world with no red tape.
Nary a word will be said of my loyalty
Devotion to the monster that is her
The lies I’ve had to completely ignore
My entire childhood, a blur.
They’ll tell you I’m a complete failure
In everything I’ve done
Most of what they say is a lie
They’ve devised, just for fun.
Once I heard I was in prison
Sent there for a few years
Then I heard I had terrible depression
You’d try to talk to me and get tears.
The rumors they make up about me
In all their silly fun
Is the only reason I’ve ever even thought
I’d rather not sit here, I want to run.
In very dark moments
When I’ve heard a nasty lie
I’ll seriously consider for a moment
Maybe it’s better if I just die.
Then I regain composure
Remember what I’m fighting for
Just to go out another day
And hear the bullshit some more.
What they say about me
Far from the truth and blantanly
Everything I wouldn’t want to be
Yet who wants to be around
Anyone that wouldn’t clear it up with me?