Come here to me
Sit down on this bench.
Breathe in the air of forgiveness
Let me tell you about the past 9 years
I barely survived
Let me tell you how broken I got
How completely lost I was
How I never thought I would ever forgive you
For leaving me.
Sit down next to me
Let us watch this storm together
Let us touch on what we had
Instead of what we don’t.
Let us talk about the things that make us laugh
Instead of all the moments I cried
Thinking of you
Wishing I had you to talk to
Trying to bargain with God
For one more minute with you.
One minute may not be a lot to you
But to me it would mean everything.
I could tell you how much I love you
What you dying meant to my life
How I still don’t know
How to live without you.
Come sit with me
Let me tell you how I was found
What they had to do to repair me
How I screamed at them about your death
How they loved me anyway.
Let me tell you how I forgave me
For my reaction
To losing you.
How I’m glad I never really died
Because I know you would have been angry
How now, 9 years later
Want to live.