He told me to stand facing myself
The look I shot him rang viciously through the air;
I watched it bounce around
Then land on the ground.
This is a place
Where one can wish for silence
Then wait for it for ages.
The mirror reflected my insecurities;
I never realized how terrible I really thought I was.
I’ve joked about people jumping back when they saw me
Or remembered the rude comment
Of one person
Instead of the hundreds of compliments.
When I turn around my actual reflection
Is so much different than what I think of myself.
Then there are the voices
The ones that tell me I’m not good enough
I’m too fat
To do, or be anything.
Then the voices I’ve ignored
The ones telling me the opposite
Of every voice I let take up space in my head.
There are people in this world
Thinking there is nothing wrong with them’
Yet everything is.
Then there are people in this world
That think everything is wrong with them;
Nearly nothing is.
When I step out of the building
Begin carrying on with life
How many great things I’ve said
To people that deserved it
They never heard?