When we first met

I thought you were so strong;

Fierce, but in a beautiful way.

I needed you to rescue me

Both from myself

And from my life.


Later I wanted you to love me

To be the one person

To never walk away.

Be the one person

That believed in me

In us.


After that

I wanted you beside me.

I had already stood myself up

Got back into life

Into living.

I only wanted you to be part

Of my life

Of my living.


You never rescued me

You never loved me

Not for a moment did you stand by me.

So I wanted you to explain yourself;

To tell me why

I never got anything from you

That I wanted.


Now I want you to go away

To stop flying around me

Like those pesky gnats.

Perhaps that

You can give to me.

stupid ass