In a second of infinite glory
A match was lit within.
What began as something I trusted
Ended being my indelible sin.
I woke one morning with scars
With a knife, I could not remove.
Bleeding from wounds I caused myself
Now I had something to prove.
Doubt made all my decisions
But hate settled my score.
If we’re all honest about all of this
I turned out to be quite a whore.
Time and God calmed my soul
The beast not longer stirs.
I wouldn’t make a wager on any of this
But I bet some of this is yours.
Fanatical about justice
I never had my peace.
I lost religion due to subservience
Then watched my pain increase.
Filtered everything I heard
Through a very jaded sieve.
When someone wanted more of me
They suddenly became a thief.
I hid reflections of past alliances
Forgot my test to duty.
If there is one thing I could use as a weapon
It would always be my beauty.
Now I look back at those forgotten years
Wish I had so much less pain.
Today I wonder as I sit in the aftermath
If it will ever stop with this rain.