So many times in my life

I’ve sat here

On this bed


With everything I had –

I was the one you were holding at night

Or sitting on the couch with

Watching a movie

Or kissing.

I wish that was me

In that peach dress

Waling towards you –

About to become your wife.

I wish that was me

Handing your son to you

That I just had.

I wish that was me

You looked at

Like you never wanted anything more.

I wish that was me

You were laughing with

In the park

That August.

Everything inside of me

Wants you,

But today I realized

I only wish it was me.